Happy New Year!

2010 is finally at an end. Actually, this end has come rather quickly. As I look back over the year I have discovered a few things, or perhaps just come to realize the obvious. I didn't spend as many hours on the bike as I had told myself I would. The riding I did, though, seemed to be more productive than in years past. I feel my performance, though far from stellar, improved significantly. I didn't see the weight loss I had envisioned but, well, it took years to put on this extra baggage. It certainly will not go away overnight.

For years I tried to convince myself that I didn't need to entangle myself in a relationship, all the while trying to find 'the right one'. This year I finally hanged up my dancing shoes. I just decided to let the relationship I had been working on for some time fade away. It worked out pretty well, actually. We are still friends, I think. I just stopped putting in the fruitless effort. It has always felt as though every relationship was heavily dependent upon my efforts. I no longer put significant effort into associations with no return. If all of the effort is mine there is little potential for the future, at least a happy one. I feel no animosity here, just facing reality. A friend once told me he always thought of me as a loner. At the time I found that a bit disconcerting because I didn't really choose that route. But perhaps it is equally apt when it is a factor of the environment as when it is a choice. I always said I was alone by choice, just who's choice I was not sure.

I have been working a fair amount of overtime lately. Usually 6 days a week. I have never been a fan of OT and do as little as possible, and almost never voluntary. Right now it doesn't bother me much. I have little else going on and I can use the $$$. Unfortunately, the new year will likely bring a drop in demand at work meaning a drop in OT in the winter whenI have little I wish to do. The work load will probably start picking up right about the time the weather improves and I want to get the bikes out. When summer arrives I will probably be working a lot of Saturdays again. Oh well, maybe I can continue to use that as an excuse for not getting into shape.

I have no idea how 2011 is going to develop. There are a great many variables over which I have no control and little influence. That said, I fully intend to continue to make changes. This past year was a good one in many ways, and I hope to keep the progress going. So I say to myself, as well as to all of you out there who may stumble across this blog...Happy New Year!!!

ME